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The Real Me

by Jeremy Flower

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Tjarko Busink
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Tjarko Busink Carla Kihlstedt = quality music, to me.

This is excellent creative music, wonderfully recorded and mixed, probably my fave for 2017. Early days (first listen), but I'm so enthusiastic I just started typing this after hearing the 7th track (WHAT A MELODY!). Deeply intriguing, emotionally charging and cognitively tickling all of your senses...I absolutely love it!

Fans of Sarah Kirkland Snider, My Brightest Diamond, even Bjork, and Kihlstedt of course should check it out... Favorite track: Keep the Lights On.
Alan Terrill
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Alan Terrill A staggeringly good collection of art songs; sensitive and varying vocals over a landscape of different sounds and rythmns. Some of the most immaculate string and brass arrangements I've heard anywhere. A class act throughout. Favorite track: Keep the Lights On.
Andrew Jones
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Andrew Jones Stellar composition - you feel unease and pleasantness at the will of the songs. Very compelling. The production puts you in the room with the sound. You live with the music on The Real Me. Favorite track: Stay With Me.
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Take 05:02
Rough waters come, rough waters go Wade to the shore, nobody knows When death comes, we all fall to pieces Struggle to give, struggle to take But no other love, a big mistake Lie to her face, poison the well Sit back and watch her mind release No voice from me, never at peace Bad comes to worse, worse comes to worst Tear it apart, cut to me first When endings come we fall to pieces Sit back and watch her love release Nothing for me, not in the least Don’t take my baby Don’t take her from me Don’t take her away
The Real Me 04:27
Pack it up, pack it up leave your things behind you brace the rails hoist the sails come find you Winter’s deep, little sleep and I stoop to kiss you slap my face leave this place, I miss you. Will it last, will it last if this is how I treat you where will I be when your dreams come true See the world, steal the world leave a mark so they know me own it all, big and small will it show me Back at home, back at home will she be waiting for me try my luck sailing on the sea. When I’m gone, feeling strong with the wind behind me can it be that I've found the real me will it last, will it last if this is how I treat you for all my love I can hardly see you Where will I be, where will I be when your dreams come true In the rain, in the rain please think fondly of me coming home but the life has left me.
The number twelve must get so lonely The people leave before saying hello They made it this far can’t they have a little faith Scared of what might await them at the next door Then when they find the number one for them Do any hear what says the number twelve Don’t let the superstition keep you from falling Just kiss me once before our time is done
Ichabod 04:09
Now I’m on fire bound to this journey I forget nothing The paint starts to peel mountains become sand Earth forever changing We were never wanting And It bleeds across the sky we have lost all contact I’ll tell you a story of a million little lies would you believe them if I try? “I’ll be just fine.” “It’s a blessing in disguise.” “I will not resign.” Hopes falling down carve this bitter taste of loss on your tongue picture my face And it bleeds across the sky we have lost all contact Hope can be redrawn glory is gone
I live here on the banks of a cyclical river no water here to be found waves of gold and silver I live here in shadows of a house for the mad it’s halls were ripe with deceit but it’s all they thought they had I live here in the smoke of an age’s hope lost where once was deep interest now there’s just the diesel exhaust It’s all on fire the scraps of our life the days have passed this river runs underground
Past the warm sunny weather long nights and the sleep never comes Still and warm I’m waiting for you silent rain where I stand Cast away, catching nothing brushed off like a fly in the sun Nothing there there’s nothing here I wait my turn Then days go by then years go by we’re older As October becomes part of you remember the lover in me Fast asleep and I’m watching just wait, touching some other night Still and warm I’m waiting for you silent rain where I stand
Prayed for rain and I’m swimming home With no restraint we’ll all turn to stone Another dinner date we can’t afford to miss Another couple years suspended in this bliss Keep the lights on for me A story I’ve yet to read And when the wisdom catches up to our disease I’ll be the first one sleeping underneath the seas Prayed for sun and I’m melting fast The party’s done, wasn’t meant to last And you can hear the people laughing all night long Like distant battles always singing the same song Keep the lights on for me A story I’ve yet to read And when the wisdom catches up to our disease Our fading breath will muster just a gentle breeze When we were content we had all we could want but now I can’t forget what it’s like to breathe pretend my heart beats again but you just can’t let go
Blow Up 07:08
We live here inside this little box among all the wiring among all the memory and all the wasted time Take it back and we’re staring at the walls and all the evidence and all the fingerprints and it proves we wasted time Oh well We don’t care if it kills us we’re immune to all the guilty looks and all the photo books and all the wasted time Blow up, blown out All night, it’s alright
My Dove 05:14
Blindly drink from the cup living well a shirt on my back crack the riddle I’m on track to see my dove Pine for easier times hope and pray they soon will appear run away and hide come here to touch my dove Watch me climb to the top on shoulders sore, years underfed I will watch TV in bed I’m not in love Fly away my dove the treasure that you leave keeps millions in their place my dove Living a filthy rich life teasing me with something new If I was half as pure as you the walls come down
Holding out for hope positive, never doubt I’m caught up in fantasy possible, to be without Simply try to let go careless, live the dream All my love, All my love It’s warm in this house and though the wind’s picking up A child fast asleep warm drinks and plenty of cups why waste this paradise this life Looking for my mistakes communicate, don’t understand the minutes apart grow long passable, gets out of hand Finding some common ground Wary of fading out Hold my hand, a passing fad It’s warm in this house and though the wind’s picking up a child fast asleep warm drinks and plenty of cups why waste this paradise this life this paradise Now do you see the way? I give to you this paradise
Stay With Me 06:31
Now I see Leave the rest to me Never leave Coming down to see Leave the rest to me Sit and rest somewhere Sit and stare Stay with me
We’re walking along foggy streets with nothing around but the heat Older by the breath Oh, to be our best And every town tells us a tale of heavy hearts losses on sale Craving mystery From hasty trips to sea Come weather the storm with us we’ll tell you the truth if you must Have you any proof We’re longing in the tooth Leave all your nostalgia in haste bring only the memories you taste We’ll circumvent the maze And give you back your days And when our long journey is through we hope your desires pure and true The curtains start to close And everybody knows Did happiness visit with you? fulfillment say “How do you do?” This is not a fight But don’t forget to write
That's where I'm coming from No real prospects Could be I'm a lover Without a heart Oh, it quit at the start Lower my standards Don't disappoint Could be I'm a sinking ship In an empty sea Oh, I'll try 'til I'm free
Don’t you lose sleep my dear it all comes out just fine close your eyes and rest and dream of coming tides Laughing becomes a smile and then just a sheepish grin the weight on your eyes a must but when did it begin


released January 8, 2016

The Ensemble:

Carla Kihlstedt – Vocals, Violin
Jeremy Flower – Vocals, Guitar, Keyboards
Jon Evans – Bass
Matthias Bossi – Drums, Percussion, Vocals
Abby Swidler – Viola
Emily Hope Price, Elizabeth Schultze – Cello
Jeremy Udden – Saxophones
Alex Sopp – Flute, Piccolo
Sam Sadigursky – Clarinets
Louis Schwadron – French Horn
Ryan Keberle, Brian Drye – Trombone

Produced by Jeremy Flower, Jon Evans, and Joel Hamilton

Recorded by Jon Evans at Brick Hill, Orleans MA and Joel Hamilton at Studio G, Brooklyn NY

Mixed by Joel Hamilton
Assistant engineer: Francisco Botero, Mike Jinno.
Mixed at Studio G Brooklyn
Mastered by Matt Agoglia
Design by Michael Savona

Special Thanks: Elisa, Sam, Ari, Osvaldo Golijov, Jon Evans, Arnold and Maggie Bossi, Joel Hamilton, the Studio G staff, Frank and Mona Kelly, the Flowers, and everyone who lent their energy to this project in any way


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